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[Mar. 2nd, 2007|01:10 pm] |
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| looking back. |
[Jan. 25th, 2007|04:04 pm] |
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| | contemplative | ] | There's a million things to say to you. Most of which you know so I'll keep it short. Stay strong. Never quit. You are beautiful, intelligent, and fun. You will be successful at whatever you choose.
Where do I even begin, there are very few people in this world such as yourself. You seem to light up a room with your presence and your heart glows on the outside. You are truly one of the most beautiful girls I have ever met. Thank you for the wonderful experience.
You are one hell of a strong girl. Through all the drama of high school, you've come out standing up and I commend you for that. I know that you will never change just to make everyone else feel comfortable. Be proud.
Even though we really don't know each other that well, you always had this way of making me feel better about myself. You made me feel important. Thank you for that.
You're a great girl. From the 6th grade till now you're still the same amazing girl. I have more respect for you than anyone. I know you'll be successful at whatever you do. To taking care of kittens to being a good friend...you're such a sweet girl.
Interesting. Should I risk it? |
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[Aug. 20th, 2006|02:30 am] |
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| | irritated | ] | i love driving i love being able to drive away from problems when im pissed i love the freedom i love the feel of the car i love the independence i love feeling like im mature
the cops have radar on me, out of the five times I've been to a party with over 20 people, four times the cops have been called, so here we are hiding in katie's basement, i don't understand how these people who throw crazy parties live to tell about it. maybe it's because the party was littered with 16 year old girls dragging on a cig in one hand, a bud light in the other. really classy. so they all drove home trashed, got pulled over, shit there pants, and said where they got the booze from. my mom would kick my fucking ass if a cop came to the door. actually i'd be executed on the spot. with my luck i would never try it.
as to bud light, seriously, that stuff is such shit. every party i go to there is bud light eveywhere, why do people drink bud light, if you're going to drink, do it right. suck up the extra calories bitch, your liver is taking a harder hit than your belly. ive heard that it has a lower alcohol content, dude, aren't you drinking to get buzzed? get a heineken or a sam adams lager. do baileys or something.
eh, im done bitching, goodnite
the summer is almost over...wtf |
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[Aug. 8th, 2006|01:22 am] |
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| | complacent | ] | The way I feel is never going to change. I believe that my own naiveties and choices have gotten me to where I am now. I believe that the situation will never rectify itself given the people it includes, myself being the indecisive girl I am. Aaron was right. I dreamt of you again. In the dream, you and your friend were in your car, and there was a crash, an explosion, and I rushed out the door to see both of you injured very badly, your friend died. I felt terror, horror in my stomach. Then you woke up, and the feeling of relief and emotion, sheer happiness washed over me. It was so strong even in sleep. I thought I lost you. I would rate that happiness as being one of the happiest times in my life, even though I was asleep. I love you.
But let's quote several members of my family on their take on life:
Life sucks and then you die. Life's a fucking bitch. Suck it up. You're not the only one.
That should suffice to get me to sleep, and then through the next couple of days until I dream of you again. Dreams are always great, because you can get out that raw lust and experience the bliss, the fulfillment, and everything goes as you would ideally want it. When you're awake and imagining it, the negative thoughts, the real world, keeps barging into your head, and ruins everything. |
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[Jul. 14th, 2006|01:14 am] |
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| | contemplative | ] | single life equals the simple life, ha, yeah right
today was a really really bad day regardless
work sucked, i wanna blow my brains out i can't paint my room for crap i am starting to think i will never learn stick i will have to drive a caravan for the rest of my life
on a good note however i hung with two of my favorite ladies tonight and tommorrow is planned maybe fitting in some pool with mike and steve my room might be done by the end of this weekend i bought jaws unleashed which is pretty sick reading an awesome book
ive got so many things to catch up on and no time to in the words of a best friend, "i need to hook up with some boys" some meaningless hookups to clear my head i need to catch up on the mentality i shouldve had throughout high school well said |
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[Jun. 15th, 2006|01:25 pm] |
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| | winded | ] |
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| | Live- Heaven | ] | 50 Leg Lifts on each leg 3 25 sit-up reps and a pathetic jog around the block
yeah, im winded
not bad for the first day hopefully i can keep it up |
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[Jun. 13th, 2006|11:56 pm] |
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| | Don McLean-Bye Bye Miss American Pie | ] | So, I figured I'd come out of LJ hibernation. This summer is going to be a blast. So I figured I'd keep it posted for memory's sake. I don't really have anything to write about. Lea turns 19 in 24 hours. Gotta come up with something crazy for that. Hopefully hanging out with Laura later this week. She and I have become so tight. I love it. I love her. She's so creative, alive, fun, flirty, feisty. She's awesome. Carly comes home for Neil's grad party, I miss her like crazy. That'll be awesome. Ania's party was great. Played pong minus the beer, had to see Matt later. I sucked. God forbid alcohol touches my lips. Ay yay. I love him, but...yeah, but nothing. I love him. Talked personal stuff with Pat Sheehan. Now that I look back on why I have no clue. Probably because it was fun to see him like it. Sarcastic bastard.
So I guess I had more to write about than I originally thought. I'm gonna go read some Discover a la the Future of Terrorism. |
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[May. 30th, 2005|12:51 am] |
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| | aggravated | ] | What is so great about "the bad girl"? |
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[May. 26th, 2005|10:32 pm] |
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| | crappy | ] | So apparently I'm no fun. I hope tommorrow is better than today.
I hope everybody doesn't hate me tommorrow because I think I'll cry. |
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| Alle-frickin-luia!! |
[May. 25th, 2005|11:39 pm] |
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I just finished my last essay for Mrs. Chelte. That means summer is HERE! God I never thought it would come. I've never read so much my entire life as senior year. So many frickin books up the wazoo!!! I am f.i.n.i.s.h.e.d with analyzing and calculating. I will now be taking up sun bathing, late nights, late mornings, wiffleball, parties, vacation!!! Senior week starts Friday. After I graduate I am off to Maine and later Canada for an entire week with my guy! Then I'm wringing my summer dry for all it's worth. I'm using my Blockbuster movie pass and I'm catching up on all the new releases. I have a job and in even better news I just ate a Reeses Big Cup. It's three peanut butter cups put together. At first I was sickened when I bit into it, but it is my favorite so I dealt with it. I'm a little worried though. I am afraid my friends won't accept me at Senior Week. Some of them I couldn't give a fuck about, but I'm just worried that those important to me might have forgotten. My hair looks alot better. After I washed it, it toned down on the color and it looks really subtle and nice. I'm getting it cut tommorrow. I'm adopting out T-Bone to Heather and Wahab tommorrow. Then Matt is going to do a photo shoot with me for kicks if its nice out. Those will be posted on MySpace if you are interested.
Nite-nite!! Meghan |
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[May. 25th, 2005|12:58 am] |
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| | happy | ] | Who has the best friends I could ever ask for? Who got a job at Friendly's?
Let's see, what else happened today...
Who can't wait to see my friends?
Yeah, all me.
Who's a dork!!!??? I am. And I love being one. |
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[May. 23rd, 2005|08:55 pm] |
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| | nauseated | ] | Just got my hair highlighted and WOW it sucks!! I want to cry. |
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| my two cents |
[May. 22nd, 2005|12:46 am] |
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| | irritated | ] | Edgar Renteria needs to frickin chill out. I'm watching replays of the past few games at 99 and he's flipping out on the ump on a pitch that was clearly a strike. I've never seen a clearer pitch. He was acting like a stupid gangster, pushing his chest up in front of the ump like he's a stupid gangster with something to prove. Another player had to pull him off of the ump. The Red Sox are an awesome bunch of guys. They're not assholes. They're a great bunch of guys. They have a good rep and this Renteria better not screw it up or else he'll have to go through me and my guns.
Amen.
I hate ignorance. Ahhhhh. Time for bed. |
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| whoop dee doo!! |
[May. 20th, 2005|09:57 pm] |
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| | music is for foooooools | ] | I'm in a sad slump these past few days. It's great because the three people I never want to see again out of the entire graduating class at Comp are going to the UMASS Amherst. I swear, with my luck, they would follow me to Tunguska. Tommorrow I have to bring the kittens back. I really don't want to. I love them very much. I feel like my friends hate me. Well, some of them. It could just be that I'm extra sensitive lately but I feel like these people have problems with me. I'm so sick of people having problems with others and just letting it brew. If we were friends wouldn't you want to rectify the situation? Perhaps not. I would. I would probably do it by e-mail because I have no guts. But I would do it none the less. People say don't care if people like you or not. Well, I just can't help it. Hopefully I'll snap out of this stinky crap with some good sleep. Please leave me something to show me I'm loved. |
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[May. 19th, 2005|12:54 am] |
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| | drained | ] | I was on MySpace tonight. It drives me crazy. They have all those interactive ads. I can't help myself. I have to play. I either have to kiss Johnny Depp, shoot the paparazzi, shoot the cowboy criminal or worse...crush the cockroaches!!! The cockroaches drive me nuts. I can't not crush them. I see them walk across the screen and I can just picture their tiny legs going clicky-clack over the floor. Agh, it makes me shiver like nothing else. Good thing I have pop-up blocker. So I hear there are horses at the senior picnic. Holla!!! I'm getting Leah to go with me. She's afraid of horses but I'll tame that steed. There is also a pool but it'll probably be a 40 degree day. You know, the general weather in late May for this state. The kittens go back soon. It makes me really really sad. I've become really attached to these guys. I'll post pictures soon hopefully. Who has an interview on Saturday with Friendly's???? MEEEEE!
Wish me luck missmeghanboesch
days go by i can feel em flying like my hand out the window in the wind cars go by and its all we've been given so ya better start livin right now days go by |
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| thank god im a country gal |
[May. 15th, 2005|12:30 am] |
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| | relaxed | ] |
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| | Keith Urban- You're my better Half | ] |
These past few days have been great. Friday I had no school. I woke up to find that Matthew had been accepted to the UMASS!! I am very, very proud of him. He is an intelligent, handsome, mature man and I am so glad he loves me as much as I love him. I have no doubt in my mind that he will succeed in anything he does. I love you. Now everyone go and congratulate him either on his livejournal which is aodhanloki or leave him some praise here. He worked for it.
I had riding this Friday and I chose Breaker. He's a good boy. I'm really starting to become partial to him. I would never forget my Finesse though. I did my first jumping course. Four jumps in a row, cantering towards the second and fourth and trotting the first and third. It was definitely tough and it was a bouncy ride but I'm proud of myself. After it was over I fed him some carrots because he's such a good boy. Last class till September. I'm going to go crazy. Perhaps a few friends will go horseback riding with me on a ranch in upstate Mass. We'll see though.
I have pictures of the kittens but Matt has to post them because I don't know how. As far as life goes, I think I'm taking a new path in life. Law is out. I don't want to live in NYC and take the subway to work everyday. I don't want to argue my life away. I want to wake up in Montana on my ranch every morning excavate the earth, maybe look for some dinosaur bones. I want to get up with the sun in the cool crisp air and just relax. I want to have a ranch with horses, pigs, goats, cows. I'm a country girl. I have finally realized what little patience I have for people. Traveling the world is important. Helping others in a big way is important. I don't know how I'm going to do it, but I'm sure God will show me. Geology...Anthropology...Archeology...one of those. I'm meeting with the head of the geology department at the UMASS this summer. Hopefully, we will help me see the right path. I just need to get a straw cowboy hat now. :o)
I've been playing baseball with Dan and Matt alot lately. My brother came out and hit a few with us and we had such a good time. He's been teaching me alot about baseball and I'm just loving it more and more.
So today I went to the shelter and I'm filling up food dishes and scooping out litter boxes when a woman comes in. She comes up to me and and says "Habla espanol un pequito?". She spoke no english. Does anyone realize how long I have been waiting for this oppurtunity to come up? No. Probably not because I'm the biggest dork ever. But I understood a good amount of what she said. She had surrendered a cat named Peter to us and she wanted to know how he was. Well I go and check and poor Peter was very sick and had to be put to sleep. So I'm explaining it to this nice lady and we get into a 30 min conversation. Honestly. She was telling me about Peter's personality and about her family and how she knew Peter was sick and how she lives in a bad neighborhood and how knowing two languages was so important. Alot of the conversation was filled with abstract words that we never studied in Spanish but I got the jist of it and we had a good conversation. I really helped her and she left satisfied. She said that when she was finished mourning Peter she would come back to adopt another cat. MISSION ACCOMPLISHED!! I have to tell Ms. Parzych and Mrs. Czelusniak. They will be so proud!
After being exhausted mentally and physically for conjugating verbs and remembering Spanish from over 7 months ago for 30 min, I went to mall with Matt and Wendy. I treated Matt to dinner for getting into UMASS and then we went shopping and I got a pair of shoes to match my pink halter dress. I also got a jean mini skirt and a flowy top and another teal halter summer dress from AE. I really didn't need it but I wanted it so I indulged. Kill me, ok? I got some unmentionables at Target. I blew $100+ in 3 hours. It goes so fast. Then Matt couldn't stand anymore shopping so we dropped him off to go play poker with the guys and Wendy and I went to Fashion Bug which is really nice. They have some really nice things there and they have adorable shoes for under $25. It's a really great store. I recommend that everyone check it out. I tried on some great shoes but the heels were thin and tall. I tried walking in them and I almost killed myself. How do you girls do it? I just can't walk in those things for the life of me. I can do heels, just not huge ones. Yeesh. I see so many girls walking around HCC will these stiletto boots or heels on. I mean, why? You're at school. Or you're at the mall. When I go to the mall I have on sneakers, a pair of old jeans and a baseball cap.
Do guys really like this? Please tell me.
After THAT, Wendy and I came home and watched Legends of the Fall which is one of the best romance movies I have ever scene(<---haha, get it? ;op). We cried and then she left and here I am about to call Matthew and about to get some beauty sleep. Goodnite everyone.
Summer and senior week is almost here!
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| nightmares :o( |
[May. 8th, 2005|06:13 pm] |
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I had a scary dream last night. I dreamt that the world was being taken over by an unnamed group. My family and others had to escape to a place which seemed like another dimension. We could bring important things to the other dimension because everything would be obliverated by this unnamed group. They would come into our house, murder those alive, and burn our house. But there was a huge problem. Everything we took along had to be converted into a file and saved on a floppy disk. So I loaded up all the things I felt important, the classics, my jewelry, family keepsakes, and the cats. When I got to the car in which we were to cross over to the other dimesion with I asked if all the cats were accounted for. My family said only 4 out of the 12 were there. So I ran back into the house to save them on the hard disk but I didn't have enough room. So I dumped the classics and the jewelry and I fit one cat on. I then dropped my clothes and I fit another cat on. I couldn't fit the babies downstairs though. My family was screaming for me to get into the car because we could see this unnamed group flying into our world with fighter jets. I kept yelling for them to dump some of their stuff so we could fit the kittens in but they grabbed me and threw me into the car. We drove off and the kittens, along with all my possessions were vaporized.
I woke up in a cold sweat, crying. Needless to say I didn't get much sleep. I'm going out with Matt for dinner at Applebees :o) |
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[May. 8th, 2005|12:32 am] |
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| | blah | ] | I feel so unimportant. I've been having so many conflicting feelings. I'm starting to realize things but it doesn't make life any easier. It's really depressing actually. I mean. I look at my friends. And I know I have friends. Alot of people really do love me and care for my well-being but I miss intimacy. I used to have it with Shan but no matter what I did it didn't work. I couldn't build it by myself. She was just never interested like I was. I don't think alot of people see friends like I do. I see friendship as a very deep relationship built on trust and intimacy. I'm not the kind of person to be hang out with one person one minute and then if shit happens go to the next. I work, and I work, and I work to repair that relationship even if it kills me inside. She has new friends now. So does she. I'm no longer the one either of them goes to when life is tough. All those memories. I don't have friends anymore who know me inside and out. My calls go unreturned, my effort wasted. I don't have that one friend, that best friend. I don't have that person who is everywhere I go. I don't have that person that cheers me on, the one I can pillow fights with, go out on a Friday night with. I want to go to Florida with someone this summer to see my grandpa, all expenses paid. Can you believe that no one would take that oppurtunity? That no one would jump at it? Where is that best friend? It's really depressing. I'm talking to my brother tonight and he starts gushing to me about how he wants this girl I know. She is everything opposite me. She's an incredible girl, mind you, but she's very different from me. Well, not completely. How lucky must I have been to find Matt? Thank god, because I am apparently not what men are looking for. I just want it to be like the old days when Leah and me would play Pocahontas and make medicine out of the moss growing on the stone walls, the days when we'd creep up on John Smith because he was such a hot Disney character, the days when we'd play doctor, and dig up the T-Rex claw stuck in the front path's concrete.
There are so many deeper things in life that I don't want to keep inside. I think I'm going to start keeping a personal diary. There are just too many things I want to say that I can't say because they're too personal. I like LJ but I can't keep these things inside. |
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| very wierd |
[May. 5th, 2005|11:09 pm] |
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| | afire | ] | I've always felt like such the girl next door
but for some reason tonight
I feel beautiful, stunning, afire, and sexy
and I can't put my finger on it, but i love it
One thing I know for certain is this. *Fashions and hair styles may change, but inner beauty is always in. Smile ladies we always look our best. |
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| get out da way bitch get out da way |
[May. 2nd, 2005|10:49 pm] |
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| | Mariah Carey- We Belong Together | ] | I am on a roll. I am inhaling the reading material Mrs Chelte sent me. I n h a l i n g i t. 200+ pages a day. These last few days have been great. These last few months have been excellent. Who can honestly say that? Not many people. I have caught up with alot of my friends, made new ones to replace the farty ones. That's right REPLACE. I've been fostering kittens, getting lots of exercise, loving college, thinking about senior week, Maine with Matt, the summer, college. I might be getting a job at Friendly's. I applied and handed it right to the manager and Alli said she'd put in a good word for me. I would love to work at Friendly's. My brother is home from college and my grandma is back from Ithaca which brightens the household. My faith in people in general is being restored. I went to a wedding on Friday. It was my sister's friends wedding and I was sobbing. I sob at weddings. The emotion gets to me. Matt and I went to the Springfield Science Museum and looked at different exhibits like astronomy, anthropology, dinosaur, biology, habitat. We really had a great time. There was this one room with 10 different life size African animals. There was an elephant, a zebra, an antelope, a lion, a hippo among others and each had a button you could press that would make the sound of the animal. Well no one was in this hall and Matt and I couldn't pass it up so we were running up and down the halls pressing the buttons as many times as possible to get the place screaming. The two of us made sure we got to every button before the sound clip stopped. It was so funny. It sounded like a stampede in there. We indulged in our inner nerds. There was also this computer that would judge the damage a astroid would do if it hit Earth. There were all different types of values: size, speed, angle of impact, whether it land or water. Matt and I were screwing around with that thing. We made it the worst possible impact ever and we watched the clip for it. It was a lot of fun. <3
I am going to go do some more reading now. Much love to everyone. P.S. I really want to get dolled up and go dancing. I am willing to lie to my parents. A mere white lie. Please someone go dancing with me I want to go soooo bad. |
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